mmhmm

i'm drinking a glass of bittergourd and green apple juice.
it encapsulates my mood right now. bittersweet.

i was supposed to have started work about half an hour ago. but naturally i haven't.

my room's a mess. my life's a mess.

its all been so different. there's no longer someone or something i can turn to. nothing i can find solace in. playing the piano doesn't seem enjoyable anymore. reading books ain't fun anymore. going out with friends is almost an ordeal. i dunno.

i'm messed up and i know its my fault.

in other news, i watched 2046 and A.I. yesterday. 2046 was like so really slow paced.. it was like sucking the life out of me. A.I. on the other hand was kinda deep. Or at least that's how i made it out to be. a young boy in search of love [motherly love in this case]. mmhmm.