drained

i'm totally totally exhausted. drained physically and emotionally. just feeling numb.

i just think i never really picked myself up after december. barely dragged myself through these CTs. crawling through each passing day. but there's no more vigour. no more motivation and no more drive. it's all gone. gone with that whirlwind of events. i feel terrible. terrible coz i can't do what i want to do, what i know i have to do. and terrible coz i know i've let so many pple down, disappointed so many pple.

numb.