lost

today, wherever i went, whatever i did, i just felt some deep seated resentment. bitterness.

i spent my afternoon wondering around with my dad. which is pretty cool. read some stuff at borders, walked round cine, bought something from world of sports.

but well, everything i did, everywhere i went, i just felt terrible. there's no longer any inner peace.

the focussed child that i was a year ago is no more. it amazes me how someone or somethings can crush me so completely. utterly destroy me. change me. i'll never be the same again. the me at the end of 2002 - lost, never to be found again.