Only One
Yellowcard

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one



Lyrics make so much sense when you think bout them.. Had a tough and exhausting day.. I dunno why i'm so tired.. i've been trying very very hard to prevent myself from falling asleep during lessons. but occasionally i just doze off.. my head will just droop.. then i'll pop straight back up. well.. i really dunno. no time to recharge. just have to keep going.. hope momentum will carry me through.

as if i wasn't dead tired enough, we had hockey physical today. i was doing hw during recess and didn't have time to have lunch after school.. so i went for training in the fricking hot sun having eaten nothing but breakfast which was at 615. resultantly, i had my first true literal experience of the phrase "seeing stars".. you actually do see white lights.. blinking.. flashing.. but nvm. "seeing stars", especially on the track, just reminds me of certain events that occured on 6th December 2004, a monday night. some thousands of kilometres away. but nvm. i got through the physical session.. but my left arm is now unable to function properly.. can't lift anything without feeling a strain. all that arm wrestling during free period obviously did me no good. but golly, i actually grew stronger.. won quite a couple of times..

on a more disturbing note, my mom has been reading my chat logs. again. i was wrong to lie to her. but does that mean she can deprive me of all forms of privacy? sometimes i wonder if she's attempting to live my life for me. as if it's a second chance for her. to do things that she didn't manage to do. i dunno. she needs to let go someday. in fact, i need to let go of some things too. one day.