Stutters back to life. for a while

oh gosh i just realised it's april fools. but i'm not in the mood.

hmm... shall i revive this blog? that'd make it my 3rd active one. hmmmmm.

*blinks'

did quite a bit of stuff yesterday. my dad left for toronto to pick up my grandma and my aunt and cousin flew in from LA so we went out for lunch then had nice filling lots-of-stuff at Bakerzin. although i thought the warm chocolate cake would have been better. but well, let's not be a spoilt brat.

following that, i went over to pick up my contacts. i'm on soft lens now. i have no idea where i dumped my old hard lens. but i think i like my spectacle-less look lol. my eyes look bigger =P then i met song and i was like walking around orchard with my light blue shades on xP looked like a playboy or pimp or whatever apparently hahaha. we watched aeon flux. which i guess thematically speaking explains rather interesting (and yet cliche) issues but well, execution cinematography-wise wasn't all too fantastic. [okay bad attempt trying to sound professional]

after that, song and i "happened" to meet psk and clarice at PS haha. song had to go home for dinner but i stayed and had half a burger? and a drink? yeah. not really what you'd call dinner. just spent some time catching up with soon kai and clarice. which was kinda fun. or at least better than most of my hols.

as you may have already guessed, i'm dying of boredom at work yet again. pple are either overseas, sleeping, or working. so hrm. 5th today. can't believe one year passed so quickly. this time last year, i was watching incredibles. life-changing experience. seriously. lol.

i'm hungry. and i only have 1 packet of hello panda here. hmph.

简简单单

我摊开双手
你予取予求
直到你想自由

痛苦的时候
我不会闪躲
就像树叶甘心为春风坠落

只是

简简单单的爱过
我还是我

简简单单的伤过
就不算白活

简简单单的疯过
被梦带走

当故事结束之后
心也喜欢一个人寂寞

bah

i'm back at work. i'm tired. and my eyes are sore. i think i've been frowning for the past 14 hours or so. and i don't really care if you peeps say i'm getting whiney again. coz this is how i really feel.

i didn't get a good night's sleep. and that was really coz i was in a bad mood. i was disgusted. perhaps with others. perhaps with myself.

i got home at bout 935 then did some heavy reading till almost 1. i dunno. when i feel emotionally unstable i just immerse myself in work and information. perhaps that's the problem. i've been using too much of my head and too little of my heart.

i see the lies and hypocrisy around me and i can't bring myself to trust anyone. i don't even trust myself. maybe coz i cheat myself too much. denial you could say. i know i'm a hypocrite to a certain degree. but ah well.

solitude. i love it. i hate it. i could do with a thousand years of it but i doubt i could bear with more than a day alone without some form of an outlet.

my eyes are sore. the tears refuse to come out. too much intraocular pressure. glaucoma here i come.

ladida

zzzz boring boring sianzz

and hungry for that matter.

yay pple are starting to play KoL again! lol.

ulcers are killing me.

i need to dye my hair. and soon. lol.

okay yay! a childish immature post! yippee.

i'm sitting at work and i'm completely exhausted. as usual, there's nothing interesting going on here. and to make matters worse today, royston isn't here, and no one seems to be online.

and. i forgot to bring my new book to read. never let me go by kazuo ishiguro. shortlisted for the man booker prize this year.

ahhh.. i still haven't watched goblet of fire. -yawn-

i'm confused! yippee! don't i just love being confused? goodness.

i dunno what i need, what i want. aiya what a waste of time. completely pointless rant there. i hope you had fun reading it.

back to "work" -sniggers-

The Importance of Being Ernest

(the above title was adapted from the original by Oscar Wilde. It is not a spelling error)

I stared at the plane ticket to Key West and took the cigar out of my mouth. "All I gotta do is go to this address and pick up some papers?"

The lawyer a stack of hundreds across the desk. "A manuscript. It's very important to my client."

I sifted through the bills. There had to be five thousand dollars. Clients as flush as this one don't usually go slumping on Mariposa Street to find a PI. It made me suspicious. "I'd like more details before I stick my neck out."

to be continued....

the why and wherefore i'm alive

i'm back. but i think that's enough of pretty women on my blog for now. sorry justin xP

i was in a brilliant mood just a few hours ago despite the aches from a whole day's training yesterday. that is until i read some stuff that has left me melancholic and feeling like i've been letting people down.

speaking of which, i've really let myself down for the exams that have just passed. i didn't put in enough effort and with that cause, i kinda know the imminent effect. disappointing end to secondary school life really. this whole year has been a real letdown to be honest. moments of temporal joy, but nothing achieved, nothing improved upon. i consider it a failure.

i enjoy solitude. yet something inside me is just constantly screaming out for attention. i find it sick really. and i dunno how i can change that.

the world is but a stage
where every man must play a part
and mine a sad one.

hrm

mena suvari looks like an adult emma watson! soooo hot! and naughty looking! =P
that ought to satisfy all you emma lovers on my taggie? yep.


ah bad poetry for hw.


Seize the Day

The winds of time flutter by
But they fail miserably to obliterate
Those footprints in the sand

Each grain
Trickling down the edge of the hourglass
And we flip it over
Replay

Why wallow in that pool of self pity?
Stop reviewing those ripples of regret.

Why wish for the cease of days?
Eject that sorry film reel and seize the day!

rachel mcadams <3

perhaps its time to look around and appreciate everything else.



on another note, rachel mcadams is soooo chio XD

its the eyes. and the smile. and the smooth white skin. strangely reminds me of some like really ex-crush. i can't even remember who but who cares lol.

<3