drowning

no time. no space to breathe. suffocating routine.

choice. the problem is choice.

as i said in my presentation today, the choices we make are what defines ourselves. well, the last six months, i've made a tad too many bad decisions. bad choices. how. how do i redefine myself?

why worry

I worry,
I wonder all the time
why worry
It's killing me,
forget about it

I whisper,
remember what she did
Don't miss her
Set me free
but i can't forget it

Angry and gone,
and the list goes on and on

I can't move on, I can't take it

Believing,
the things i did were wrong
I'm leaving
It fades away,
forget about it

but i'm finding,
can't do a thing alone
Rewinding
Times before,
can't live without it

i can't move on, i can't take it
i won't make it.

why worry

I worry,
I wonder all the time
why worry
It's killing me,
forget about it

I whisper,
remember what she did
Don't miss her
Set me free
but i can't forget it

Angry and gone,
and the list goes on and on

I can't move on, I can't take it

Believing,
the things i did were wrong
I'm leaving
It fades away,
forget about it

but i'm finding,
can't do a thing alone
Rewinding
Times before,
can't live without it

i can't move on, i can't take it
i won't make it.

tremors of the mind

it won't go away. it just won't.

killing me softly...

no. not killing me softly with his song. just ripping me apart. my mind. tearing it to pieces. slowly but surely. attacking me. waves upon waves. of insecurity. of doubt. of fear. of nothingness. of lost hope.

a void.

The day I knew you would leave
I can barely breathe
Can you hear me scream?

i shiver. natalie imbruglia? no. i shake. i tremble. at her touch? no. at dinner. chopsticks. spoon. arm. turbulence. quakes. in my mind. screaming. shouting. for something. i don't even know what it is.

He's lost his will
Time is standing still

i wish. wish that time will just stand still. but no. everything passes me by. and i'm frozen. my heart. my mind.

He walks her home
Now he walks alone
The days they turn into years
The eyes they drown in tears

flood. down my sorry face. drought. in my useless mind.

angel from my nightmare


lost. confused. shadows of my past. haunt me in my sleep. following me every step of the way. re-opening every wound.

This is the last time
That I will say these words

This is the last time

i hope.

beautiful

'My mind speaks a language I don't understand'

my thoughts are persistently interrupted by snippets from film reels of my past. in my dreams. when i'm studying. i did my la (b) assignment yesterday - places. yes places. so here goes my trail of thought whilst staring blankly at physics notes.

magnet. taiwan. electromagnetic induction. taiwan. solenoid. taiwan. and it goes on.

who? what? where? it all remains clear as mud in that disgusting swamp in between my ears.

'you and i both know, that i'm not over you'


oh and Happy Birthday Song! (:
Known you forever. or at least it seems that way haha. you've been there for me and i've been there for you (or at least i try to be) haha.. thanks for everything man! i don't think i need to type much more. our friendship is beyond words! wahaha XD

"if God made you, He's in love with me"

Zzz...

dotx.. something bout me is not very right. the comp is gonna be the death of me. no actually it's msn. or ares. or iTunes. or.. pple. nvm. school! bleargh. gah. bleh. grr. argh. nvm